I look at some people and they have the most steady disposition. I, on the other hand, accelerate towards lightening speed the more that is on my plate. It started Wednesday night. It seemed the more people I saw, the more little details I needed to communicate; the more I communicated, the more details I thought of that needed to get done. Thursday, I awoke early. I spent time thinking, and praying and meditating on some verses. Instead of getting up refreshed, I felt like I had to download what was in my head before I could get to my schedule which literally had no breaks. As the day went on, it just got busier. More people, more connections, more details, more interruptions. Lots of incredibly exciting things were happening and tons was getting done, but internally I was in overdrive.
So, today I picked up a devotion to read while I was waiting for an appointment. I went to the chapter entitled "Hurried." In that chapter was a quote by John Ortberg, "Hurry is not about a disordered schedule, it's about a disordered heart." Ouch. I began to ponder what a reordering of my heart would look like. The verse that came to me was Psalm 46:10, "Be still and know I am God." I came to the conclusion that when I enter that "lightening speed" state, I shift from being God-driven to being self-driven. Everything I did was needed and important. The problem was that it was driven by my adrenaline rather than the Spirit of God. Habits are hard to break, but one of these days, I hope to be able to walk slowly through the halls.
I'd like to leave you with Philippians 4:6-7, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
Posted on Wed, August 13, 2014
by Sam Petitfils